Ever since I was younger I have had an emotional/ maternal attraction to women, where I imagine other women are my mum (even though I love my mum), and also like thinking about other women caring about me. I have never had any sexual thoughts or attractions towards women until one day, about two months ago i started worrying about it and testing myself. Before this I aways thought about men, and imagined kissing a lot of me, i also enjoyed the though if having a relationship with a male. I even had a crush on my male teacher for over a year. Now ever since this day i feel negative towards guys i don't know why. If i was a lesbian, i would of had sexual thoughts attractions about women, before this ONE DAY, wouldn't i? the fact that i now feel negative towards guys, seems to be as a result of the confusion i have caused myself. You know when someone tells you not to think about something, and the fuirst thing you do is think about that thing, that's what i feel that i have done to myuself. I don't want to think about women or feel this way, but the first thing i do when i see a women now is make myself have sexual thoughts, which i have NEVER done in my life before except for this one day. I enjoy having emotional thoughts/attractions about women but that's it, not sexual! Am i a lesbian? I really don't want to be!!! i hate how one day has confused me so much and made me worry! I;m 18 and have never been in a proper relationship before.
And also I still enjoy only having emotional thoughts about women, even though i have started making myself have sexual thoughts about women. Wouldn't this mean that i'm not a lesbian because i feel good thinking emotional thoughts about women in comparison to sexual thoughts (which initally i made myself have in the first place.)
And also I still enjoy only having emotional thoughts about women, even though i have started making myself have sexual thoughts about women. Wouldn't this mean that i'm not a lesbian because i feel good thinking emotional thoughts about women in comparison to sexual thoughts (which initally i made myself have in the first place.)
if it is meant to happen in will