Don't like homo thoughts, I need advice on controlling it?

[marc]

At random I have these thoughts they flash on my mind all the time. I am 20 and its really hard being a gaming nerd who is white and hasn't got laid by a woman yet. It really blows. I used to be pissed off about having these gay urges since I was 12 but I said"screw it" and just moved on. But I am nervous about having these thoughts while out in public. Even though its in my mind and not coming out my mouth I still find it embarrassing. I have no intentions of getting a boyfriend, it would be the ultimate taboo and also just be baiting myself for harassment. So I don't like thinking about naked men or that stuff, even though I guess I like it, point being I try blocking it and no results. My main concern I never touched upon last time was my parents. My dad and I kinda talked about it, I dodn't outright say I was gay or bi. But I think he took the hint. My mom found out some stuff and she is just throwing your not gay gay gay. I love my parents. They are respected registered nurses and have their own company. So they aren't bad people. But I don't know what to do
my dad actually doesn't care what I am, its my mother I am worried about.
@ James well I kinda want to make those thoughts a reality. It's just pressure and I simply don't have the guts anyone else has. I love women and am attracted to them. Just at ,y age I can't get my mind off guys.
I only watch gay porn now, even if a wanna see a woman now. It's hard to get that feeling again. I know porn isn't everything. But if I like seeing a naked gender male or female, then it's legit because porn is a safe outlet for people who haven't had sex yet

 

[livewire9]

what to do?
i guess you do what makes you happy...
i think you need to get a handle on that, and stop trying to control things you have no control over... *shrugs*

 

[mitch]

So if your not gay then go kiss a boy. You will know if you like it or not. Then go from there. In other words try a guy see how that makes you feel. I know a guy who kissed another boy and he liked it! So guys like a relationship with a woman but have a guy on the side to(Ehh take care of that urg) Does not make you gay(Maybe bi) or just experitmentable.

 

[SarahPe]

u need to stop caring about these urges and realize that it's okay... i think ur so self concious about being gay or bi that ur scared of it. look up gay support groups online and actuallly TALK about it to people who have experience with growing up gay.

 

[James]

You are probably a normal straight guy who sometimes has thoughts and fantasies about other guys. Guess what - that's completely normal. It's the unusual minority of men that NEVER think about other guys, regardless of what they admit in public. If you don't want to do anything sexual with another guy, then don't. You don't have to act on every thought you have. Lots of people have disturbing thoughts from time to time, for various reasons. You'll find them less disturbing if you realize they're just thoughts, not an attack or a sign that your self-image is crumbling away.

If you try to "block" a thought, you're just going to make it more insistent. Just relax and let your thoughts flow easily. Turn off that teacher voice inside that's shaking its finger and saying "don't think that!"