I know I have low self esteem and I'm not the prettiest or the skinniest, in fact I'm down right ugly, but I believe people are laughing at me when I go to public places. Maybe I'm over reacting and maybe it's all in my head, but I can't shake it. Just the other day at Walmart two women walked by and one asked the other while pointing me out, "She have a man?" and the other responded with "Nope" and they giggled. Later the same day whle walking up a flight of stairs a group of 3 men watched me walk up, when I momentarily glanced back they all laughed.
It could be my weight, and I am heavy, but a month ago, a group of 3 large women stopped what they were doing to look at me and they all laughed as well. Could it be they're laughing at how I look? Or am I over reacting?
Yes, I do realize I could be over reacting. I do have a history of assuming things like this. But It's difficult for me to disclose that when these events happened, they were looking at me, and to confirm, there were no others around me.
I would send a picture of myself but to be honest, I would feel ashamed to show myself. I am somewhat willing to describe myself. I'm mixed and have tan skin. I am fairly short, and you already know the struggles with my weight. My skin, however, is very discolored. I have patches on my skin where it is darker then the rest of my skin. I also have a hormonal imbalance that causes, well.... I grow hair on my face...It's rather embarrassing. I do take meds for my health.
I hope that I can become healthy physically and mentally one day. But when things like this happen, no matter how good I'm feeling that day, it suddenly feels like a bombshell in my chest.
It could be my weight, and I am heavy, but a month ago, a group of 3 large women stopped what they were doing to look at me and they all laughed as well. Could it be they're laughing at how I look? Or am I over reacting?
Yes, I do realize I could be over reacting. I do have a history of assuming things like this. But It's difficult for me to disclose that when these events happened, they were looking at me, and to confirm, there were no others around me.
I would send a picture of myself but to be honest, I would feel ashamed to show myself. I am somewhat willing to describe myself. I'm mixed and have tan skin. I am fairly short, and you already know the struggles with my weight. My skin, however, is very discolored. I have patches on my skin where it is darker then the rest of my skin. I also have a hormonal imbalance that causes, well.... I grow hair on my face...It's rather embarrassing. I do take meds for my health.
I hope that I can become healthy physically and mentally one day. But when things like this happen, no matter how good I'm feeling that day, it suddenly feels like a bombshell in my chest.
and just walk and act casually from public