I am a very clean cut, normal 18 year old girl, I've had boyfriends throughout my high school years and have one now who I love and have been with for a year. However Ive been keeping a secret from all my friends and family. I've had sex and ongoing affairs with two women in my past, one girl who I was friends with for three years before anything started.. This was not a purely sexual relationship, I feel like I truly loved this girl,lets call her jen, who helped me through my very difficult time in my life.jen said she loved me too, and we wanted to be together but we were from completely different words(I am tall, preppy, blonde, she is black, short, indie kind of style) but we shared an amazing intellectual & emotional connection. We had sex many times and she would write me love letters and buy me presents and asked me to be her girlfriend and I wanted to be with her but constantly rejected her because I was afraid what everyone would think. It broke my heart to do this to her. She hated me for awhile, but now has a new girlfriend and seems to be ok with me. We are friends and even though it is a little awkward and tense and I am still in love with her very much even though I've had another boyfriend with me for a year now. Am I really bisexual or do you think its just confusion, something wrong with me. Because I have a much stronger sexual connection towards females, loved a girl deeply, but would never, ever consider starting a relationship with another female. What do u think, any advice would be helpful too