hurtful, what can I do about it? So, not only do they compare my grades to my sister but this has been going on for months. I am in very high level classes, AP classes, PA classes, and accelerated classes. In my school district, there are 3 levels of classes, Accelerated, which puts you 1 grade ahead, PA, which puts you 2, and AP which puts you 3 grades ahead. So, it not only makes sense that I have a lot of homework, very hard and challenging tests, no free time, and I study my ass off. Anyway, I am in AP primarily, and have one PA class. I have a lot of homework, and I procrastinated A TON last year and years previously and found out the hard way that was not the way to go. I still was able to easily get straight As in most of middle school, and elementary school was a walk in the park.Recently though, ive had a ton of papers that are assigned the day prior and due to the next, leaving virtually little time for regular homework (which I always complete) and then the large paper.
As of late, I have not been getting the best grades. 2 Cs, 3 Bs and 4-5 As dominate my current report card. I have to pull late nighters to get my papers done, and as a result my grades have fallen to these. However, I am known to be sort of addicted to some very addicting online grades. These I only play on weekends, and on free nights where homework takes me about an hour or two to complete. My parents however think; with the late nights and how I didn't really have them in previous years, that I am playing these instead of doing homework, doing papers, and every other thing in school. This is not true. As a result, these games have been banned and I am now disconnected from most of my friends base, which is friends from the previous state I lived in before a very saddening move, and now I have virtually no friends in this new city (I moved 2 years ago).
Not only have my parents keep on accusing me of ADD and ADHD, (which I have been tested and I do not have any of those, and if I did have them even in the first place they would've known many years ago) for my terrible grades (An A-minus deserves grounding in their eyes, UGH).They also believe that I am putting my games, my programming, and social life above academics, which I do not either. Yes, because of my late nights I have fallen asleep in class ONCE but that was at the beginning of the year.
My mother treats me like I am some sort of idiot, nags me about my grades which only stresses me out more, and destroys and self-confidence I have. Ever. My dad, who I used to be extremely close to, even closer than my mom, now has destroyed every inch of relationship with my teacher I have ever had and tells me I have no future, compares me to my sister, and yells at me every day and every night. My sister is just the usual B#*!CH as always, and is blaming me for her and her friends doings, and gets praise from my parents every day, is showered with gifts, and gets everything and anything she has ever wanted. Period.
I have lost friendships because of them, my reputation is destroyed, no one wants to hang out with me. I cannot have fun; academics truly do take priority and I have no social life. My parents make me feel like Im useless and according to them out of the two of us (me and my sister), I do not even compare, neither in grades nor smarts. It shocks me to think the wonderful relationship I had with my parents a year or two ago was amazing, and now it is full of sharp edged comments and heart-piercing remarks, not just from my parents, but from my whole family.
Has anyone else has felt that their life sucked this bad throughout highschool? Is there anyway to fix this?
I have sworn at them as well for their actions and I know that gets me no where. I am more sad than angry. They now, because of the swearing (which I never drop F-bombs or higher level swears) think I have anger management...*sigh*
In addition, I have no connection to other people at school, as my parents ended (against my will), all my sports and everything extra-curricular a long time ago. Except my instrument (thank god). So Im pretty limited.
Im a HORRIBLE test taker. I get As on my best subjects (LA and Social Studies) and Bs, Cs, Ds, and Fs, on my tests in other classes. I do fine on my finals, and large tests. My overall grade always remains in C,B,A. Usually B/A.
As of late, I have not been getting the best grades. 2 Cs, 3 Bs and 4-5 As dominate my current report card. I have to pull late nighters to get my papers done, and as a result my grades have fallen to these. However, I am known to be sort of addicted to some very addicting online grades. These I only play on weekends, and on free nights where homework takes me about an hour or two to complete. My parents however think; with the late nights and how I didn't really have them in previous years, that I am playing these instead of doing homework, doing papers, and every other thing in school. This is not true. As a result, these games have been banned and I am now disconnected from most of my friends base, which is friends from the previous state I lived in before a very saddening move, and now I have virtually no friends in this new city (I moved 2 years ago).
Not only have my parents keep on accusing me of ADD and ADHD, (which I have been tested and I do not have any of those, and if I did have them even in the first place they would've known many years ago) for my terrible grades (An A-minus deserves grounding in their eyes, UGH).They also believe that I am putting my games, my programming, and social life above academics, which I do not either. Yes, because of my late nights I have fallen asleep in class ONCE but that was at the beginning of the year.
My mother treats me like I am some sort of idiot, nags me about my grades which only stresses me out more, and destroys and self-confidence I have. Ever. My dad, who I used to be extremely close to, even closer than my mom, now has destroyed every inch of relationship with my teacher I have ever had and tells me I have no future, compares me to my sister, and yells at me every day and every night. My sister is just the usual B#*!CH as always, and is blaming me for her and her friends doings, and gets praise from my parents every day, is showered with gifts, and gets everything and anything she has ever wanted. Period.
I have lost friendships because of them, my reputation is destroyed, no one wants to hang out with me. I cannot have fun; academics truly do take priority and I have no social life. My parents make me feel like Im useless and according to them out of the two of us (me and my sister), I do not even compare, neither in grades nor smarts. It shocks me to think the wonderful relationship I had with my parents a year or two ago was amazing, and now it is full of sharp edged comments and heart-piercing remarks, not just from my parents, but from my whole family.
Has anyone else has felt that their life sucked this bad throughout highschool? Is there anyway to fix this?
I have sworn at them as well for their actions and I know that gets me no where. I am more sad than angry. They now, because of the swearing (which I never drop F-bombs or higher level swears) think I have anger management...*sigh*
In addition, I have no connection to other people at school, as my parents ended (against my will), all my sports and everything extra-curricular a long time ago. Except my instrument (thank god). So Im pretty limited.
Im a HORRIBLE test taker. I get As on my best subjects (LA and Social Studies) and Bs, Cs, Ds, and Fs, on my tests in other classes. I do fine on my finals, and large tests. My overall grade always remains in C,B,A. Usually B/A.