the beach! HELP ME I FEEL HORRIBLE!? The thing is that I'm going to a trip for an english course in california in a school in santa Barbara! The course has several activities like going to the beach, swimming pool and is very warm but that is not the whole problem! It is my weight!!!!! I am 18 years old mi height is 5,3 and weigh 170 pounds and whenever I look myself in the mirror I look at a fat little spongy and ugly blob guy that seems to be pregnant!! And it makes me really sad and embarrassed because the clothes trouble me a lot! I'm always thinking of dressing very formal and fashion to hide my fatness and i never feel calm when I use my old and wide clothes because I feel that the people see me horrible for my disgusting fatness even in the gym! Is not like I am obese but it looks ugly and my huge problem is WOMEN! I can't help wanting to look good for girls!! I want to be the most wanted guy and specially on this trip! I don't know how californian girls are like and in general i don't know if i can get to like them because they are probably very superficial and bad girls that only like hot guys and i am really scared because when time comes to go to the beach or to the pool I will have to take my shirt off and I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE REJECTED OR THAT THEY DO NOT LIKE ME JUST BECAUSE OF MY BODY! I do exercise in the gym but i have only 4 weeks and it's not enough! I really wanna meet girls on this trip but i am very insecure with my body and face because to make things better I have many spots and ugly stains!!!
I DO NOT KNOW THAT TO DO! Please give me an advice!!! Is it ok to think this way? Do you think girls will notice me even if i'm a little fat?
I DO NOT KNOW THAT TO DO! Please give me an advice!!! Is it ok to think this way? Do you think girls will notice me even if i'm a little fat?