20 years ago , I had chest pains so I was checked in the hospital. The procedure went well but then I got weak and died on the table. I was clinically dead for 5minutes. I had a NDE , begged to come back and I did before the sick my body into a freezing morgue. I found out later that I came back with the gift to heal(I rarely use it). My question is if I can heal others why can't I heal myself?