sometimes i feel like "oh yeah i know i will be able to do it" i feel confident that i'll be back to my normal self. im excited to be my usual self again.. but then on the other hand there are times too that i feel like no i cant do this any longer. i feel like i really have no way out. i want to give up blah.. do ppl who have problems for a long time experience that a lot? idk if that is bipolar because im not really the type whose energy goes high.
i want to be myself again. i want to be myself! but the prob is that i cant pull myself together. there's no motivation at all. my debut is coming so soon. im going to hongkong and i want to enjoy it! but i cant unless i answered my probs. i want to pull my self together. but its so hard.

i just want to let out how i feel.