Well, this is gonna sound stupid but I need to say it. I was laying in bed tonight, listening to music and trying to relax when the thought "I'm going to die soon." Popped into my head. It was just a very blatant thought that came out of nowhere. I tried to brush it off, but I just kept thinking about it. First it was "this will be the last song you listen to", and then it was just this constant fear of impending death.

First off, I've struggled with anxiety for 5 years. I often had panic attacks and irrational fears, which went away about a year ago, but recently, they've come back. I've been having panic attacks here and there lately, and I've definitely developed OCD. I realize I've developed it cause I obsess and worry over nothing, I have a history of depression as well. I'm under heavy and constant stress from my job.

Two months ago, my uncle passed away, and my grandpa is in the hospital right now recovering from open heart surgery. Am I just worried over nothing?