This is a rant but one that i need to get out of my system. *bare in mind i just got train tracks, so i am not happy anyway*
Ok here we go, My step mom is so annoying, she is constantly implying me to do stuff with out saying it to my face, then when she does talk she treats me like a child and thinks i need reminding of what i still have to do 'Lliam's bed isnt made' and 'we need to get a move on so WE can use the bathroom' also it seems that whenever talk of my mom coming to england she seems to go sort of wacko and puts on an evil stare etc. and she has done this for the past year and we have come to argue a dozen times and everytime i always have to bow down to her because its her house, eventhough i have my dad here. i am just in a lose, lose situation, she wont speak to me as an equal and no matter how much i have tried to be friendly, make cups of tea, help with this and that etc. it just adds up to nothing, i still get treated like a little kid and it just makes a rage build inside me like when you absoulutely hate everything. Its like she still sees me as the kid i was 5 years ago, the one who battled with homework and couldnt eat with a knife and fork properly but i have to say that i never bothered with homework and because of that i was told to go live with my dad for a term; true my homework improved but afterwards my dad didnt want me to visit more often (i mean my moms nice and would have liked a few weekends off). But now everything has changed i had to move to england because my dad could not support my school fee's at the time, he moved aprox one year after i was sent to stay with him for a term. But i am not that person because my mom was right i didnt need to do the homework because it wasnt too important or interesting, she always said that once it got interesting i would thrive and i do; I am predicted grades A-C in all my subjects maths been my lowest at a C (which isnt good because my mother is a maths teacher and my father is a PHD chemist but i did miss out on the sllabus here as i only started on english syllabus last year.) Ok enough history. I have a friend who is a year older then me and is moving away because of his step father and having arguments etc and i can see that happening with me. I also seem to have a problem of talking to my parents as equals which i shouldnt but it levels the playing ground*oh and now i sound stupid as i have a plate*orthodontics* which messes up my s' and t's* I think my step mom is afraid of been proven dumb by me as i am pretty smart but she will through it back as been cheeky etc. when i like arguing * i used to be in a debating club * I know other adults do not view me as cheeky as all my teachers seem to be friendly towards me. The biggest thing is that when i have exams or something that hurts, she expects me to carry on as usual, i mean !!!! i need to revise so i cant iron but now i must take my ironing up stairs and put it in the room i share with my half brother lliam and she tells me this while i am concentrating on writing a mock exam at home because i had to get these damn train tracks today. but if its not ironing its mowing the lawn or unpacking the dishwasher and all i wanna do is SWEAR!!!! at her and say look you want it done so bad do it your self. But i dont because i would prefer to sleep in a house. If she minded her own bussiness i would be fine, i mean now i am just like going to break something as this hate/hate relationship has gone on for a year and a few months and my dad does nothing to talk to her (as he is the only one who can since he is an adult and i am a little tiny kid). I mean he is tired of her doing this but does nothing and doesnt listen as he has his own problems with her and i dont want to hear that its PMS, hormones etc. as it happens so often.
On a brighter note my mom comes to england to work on the 30th so i should see her soon, hopefully.
Ok here we go, My step mom is so annoying, she is constantly implying me to do stuff with out saying it to my face, then when she does talk she treats me like a child and thinks i need reminding of what i still have to do 'Lliam's bed isnt made' and 'we need to get a move on so WE can use the bathroom' also it seems that whenever talk of my mom coming to england she seems to go sort of wacko and puts on an evil stare etc. and she has done this for the past year and we have come to argue a dozen times and everytime i always have to bow down to her because its her house, eventhough i have my dad here. i am just in a lose, lose situation, she wont speak to me as an equal and no matter how much i have tried to be friendly, make cups of tea, help with this and that etc. it just adds up to nothing, i still get treated like a little kid and it just makes a rage build inside me like when you absoulutely hate everything. Its like she still sees me as the kid i was 5 years ago, the one who battled with homework and couldnt eat with a knife and fork properly but i have to say that i never bothered with homework and because of that i was told to go live with my dad for a term; true my homework improved but afterwards my dad didnt want me to visit more often (i mean my moms nice and would have liked a few weekends off). But now everything has changed i had to move to england because my dad could not support my school fee's at the time, he moved aprox one year after i was sent to stay with him for a term. But i am not that person because my mom was right i didnt need to do the homework because it wasnt too important or interesting, she always said that once it got interesting i would thrive and i do; I am predicted grades A-C in all my subjects maths been my lowest at a C (which isnt good because my mother is a maths teacher and my father is a PHD chemist but i did miss out on the sllabus here as i only started on english syllabus last year.) Ok enough history. I have a friend who is a year older then me and is moving away because of his step father and having arguments etc and i can see that happening with me. I also seem to have a problem of talking to my parents as equals which i shouldnt but it levels the playing ground*oh and now i sound stupid as i have a plate*orthodontics* which messes up my s' and t's* I think my step mom is afraid of been proven dumb by me as i am pretty smart but she will through it back as been cheeky etc. when i like arguing * i used to be in a debating club * I know other adults do not view me as cheeky as all my teachers seem to be friendly towards me. The biggest thing is that when i have exams or something that hurts, she expects me to carry on as usual, i mean !!!! i need to revise so i cant iron but now i must take my ironing up stairs and put it in the room i share with my half brother lliam and she tells me this while i am concentrating on writing a mock exam at home because i had to get these damn train tracks today. but if its not ironing its mowing the lawn or unpacking the dishwasher and all i wanna do is SWEAR!!!! at her and say look you want it done so bad do it your self. But i dont because i would prefer to sleep in a house. If she minded her own bussiness i would be fine, i mean now i am just like going to break something as this hate/hate relationship has gone on for a year and a few months and my dad does nothing to talk to her (as he is the only one who can since he is an adult and i am a little tiny kid). I mean he is tired of her doing this but does nothing and doesnt listen as he has his own problems with her and i dont want to hear that its PMS, hormones etc. as it happens so often.
On a brighter note my mom comes to england to work on the 30th so i should see her soon, hopefully.