Hi. Im Madison.. i am 16 years old. =)

Ok well, i feel like there is something missing in my life. I go to church and everything, so dont say its just becasue i need god..but over the past 5 months or so i thought that i could fill that emptyness with feelings for guys..since that thought i have had sex with 8 boys for my high school. Please dont call me a slut, thats not what i need to hear. That only made things worse, my heart is broken.. i feel sad all the time. I talk to my youth leader about it and he will pray with me about all of this, but i still feel like there is something missing. I cant sleep at night sometimes..i just lay there wondering what i am doing wrong that makes me feel like this. does anyone have advice? maybe i need someone to talk to. I have no "girl" friends..only guys. And my parents arent around much to notice that anything is wrong, or to be there for me. I feel miserable in my own life..