I'm really insecure now, its not good. i guess i feel gulity. I keep telling myself in my head your gay your gay your gay. over the past 4 months my self esteem has dropped alot. i'm confused I had an about 7 sexual altercation with transsexual 4 of which anal sex was involed I guess i was the giver. but i dont want to be with transseual anymore. since this happened i've been getting really down on myself. constanly bereating my slef. i feel ashamed of the things i've done. my grades in school dropped, and i've become depressed to the point that i've been in therapy. the world has changed. i used to enjoy talking to women and having fun sex now its terrriririble. i exatcly have a girlfriend now, but man i keep beating my self, its bad cause the only time i can be relax and be my self charming funny outgoing talking to women is when i'm drunk @ parties so peoples perception of me is different from whats happening I need help or advice