For at least the last couple of days I've been having these urges to do bad things. I have come really close to looking up a place on the Internet to buy drugs like pot. I've considered taking up smoking, something I tried 8 years ago for a day, and breaking the law, sometimes I feel like doing these things just to get in trouble with the law. I'm considering becoming a cop, so I can't afford any slips. I don't want to tell my parents cause they wouldn't understand, and I can't think of anyone I can turn to.