I am gay. age 27. Right from the day I came to know about sex I am attracted toward men only. I wish to change my sexual orientation a few times but couldn succeed. I wished to change because of not that I dont like to be gay but there is no scope of a happy living in my country. The country wher I live, homosexuality is a severe crime under law.The gays are ridculed here to death and hence gays dont comeout. As I couldnot withstand the depression within myself, I cried out my problem to my mother. She pacified me and agreed that she wud not force me to marry a girl. she also insisted me that I shud not feel myself as a gay and hence shd never have gay relation with man. I dont have the intention of moving into a gay fiendy country as it is practically very tough. I work as software engineer and my professional life is very dull due to this.All my straight friends have got married xcept me.I have consulted a doctor too and he too told the thing my mother told. I feel like suicidng