Hi everyone. I'm a 14, almost 15 year old girl and I'd like to know if you think I am lesbian or if I have HOCD. For starters, I have minor depression, major anxiety, and major OCD. I get stressed out very easily and I'm almost always worried. I've never had a crush on a girl. I've never had any sexual feelings for a girl and I've never kissed a girl. I have had crushes on boys my whole life. I currently like 3 different boys. Sometimes I watch porn. I watch straight and lesbian porn. I don't watch a lot but if I "get off" to lesbian porn, I freak myself out and say it is because I am lesbian. I'm friends with a lot of boys and girls but I only have a couple of close friends that I hangout with. Sometimes I decide not to hangout with them because I'm afraid that that is "lesbian." I am extremely worried about being lesbian even though my therapist, mom, and a friend have told me that I'm not. The thought of being lesbian makes me scared and almost disgusted. I have no problem with other people being that way and one of my close friends is but the thought of me being one just gives me EXTREME anxiety. I love when boys flirt with me and talk to me, I wear makeup daily, I've always wanted a boyfriend, and I've always been a typical, straight girl. These thoughts are going through my head and all I can think is, "If I'm not lesbian, why am I thinking these thoughts?" I'd love your opinion on what you think. Do you think I'm straight? Is this all HOCD?