Happy Place Gone Violent! Freaky Dream THAT CHILDREN SHOULD NOT READ!!! Help?

[ZehpyrStorm]

Okay, so this is what happened, it was a Monday night and I went to sleep pretty late. I had a strange dream, and my dad was in it, (He will be dead for three years officially in June nineteenth.) My dream was talking to him for most of the beginning, and we addressed issues about myself, (I am bisexual, mostly pointing toward the gay part though...) and we basically addressed the issues with myself, and conversed about it the whole time he was there. I explained how much I hated being this way and wanted to change. He told me that I had to in order to get into Heaven, and I became really sad in my dream.
He told me that I couldn't look at porn, (Trying to break my addiction, and going well so far,) not to date anymore men, and to stop my gay thoughts; which is really hard to stop, and I should be fine. He then said he had to go back, and I pleaded for him not to leave, but he said he had to and left right then and there. I was alone for just a bit, and then I was dragged into my "Happy Place" involuntarily and faced my residents that are in the "Happy Place."
Basically my happy place is mostly gay kind of things. I really can't help myself, I just always go there when I'm sad, nervous, bored, or I want to escape reality. As you probably have guessed, there is a lot or orgy going on in the "Happy Place." For some reason this has always comforted me, I don't know if it's because I'm a pervert, or what, but this has always been the way since the past couple or three years. Nightcrawler is also in it because I kinda have a fetish for him...anywho, I have some parts of the "Happy Place" that are still clean and pure, like the Hundred Acre Woods, Wonderland, Cemeteries, and some other places as well. That's mostly what is it, a lot of sword fighting in the "Happy Place."
Well when I was dragged there, I was greeted by the friendly faces of my residents who usually "play" with me. They asked what position I wanted, and awaited my answer with warm smiles on all of their faces. There was about three of them, excluding Nightcrawler for some strange reason. When I told them what my dad wanted me to do, their smiles turned into frowns. They asked me again and angrily grabbed my arms and threw me on a table where they pinned me down and were about to rape me. I was holding a big knife all of a sudden, but it did nothing for me because they ripped it out of my hand. I was defenseless and about to become a rape victim in my own "Happy Place."
Just as one of them was about to enter me, I saw Nightcrawler appeared on a vent about a story higher than where I was. He attacked them all and rescued me from a horrible fate. As I sat myself up, Nightcrawler came over to the table and took his clothes off, smiled at me sweetly and sat next to me. He lifted me up onto his lap and started to cuddle with me, and I could feel him getting harder as his hands went to my personal area. I gently removed his hands and got off his lap and stared into his eyes that seemed puzzled.
He asked me why I didn't want to have sex with him. He seemed really sad as I declined him, I felt really bad for him because he is my boyfriend in the "Happy Place." I told him what had happened to me earlier, and he seemed to understand, but he still presured me. He pleaded sweetly for me to stay with him, and that we could do what ever we wanted with each other. I gave him a long kiss on the lips and said that I was sorry and that I really did want to be with him, but I simply couldn't for the sake of my soul. Eventually he stopped asking, but still wanted to stay very close to me and said that he wanted to protect me from the others who have gone completely mad and were furious with me. Even Wonderland and the Hundred Acre Woods were in complete chaos when all this had happened.

When all that was settled, he still was very close, and I decided I would allow him to look and feel, as long as he didn't enter me or play with me. All of a sudden, a group of residents came and attacked us, I had my knife with me and was ready to fight them, but then I woke up, feeling fear and complete confusion.
As you can see, I am a writer and like to add a lot of detail, but I digress, I need to know what is going on! Was this dream just a dream? Did my dad come down from Heaven to tell me how to move on into Heaven, and did this upset my subconscious mind somehow? Is this just psychological, or is there a spiritual battle going on, or is it a combination of the both? What does this dream mean? Why did I have it? Will I have this dream again? Will I be more prepared the next time I go into this dream? Please help me!

[Brandon]

This is your subconscious clashing with the religious programming that you most likely grew up with. Your father is the incarnation of your religious teachings while the enraged residents represent your feelings (conscious or subconscious) towards those teachings while Nightcrawler is representative of your homosexual personality.
Perhaps this means that you will continue to have an emotional clash with your homosexual urges and your religious teachings, while the part of you that is gay will always be a part of you, whether your emotions turn on you or not.

I say just be who you are. If you're gay then that is just fine.

[TaylorKay]

Sound like you feel bad for being gay. Witch, you shouldn't. C: It's normal, and if your Dad loved you, I'm sure he did, he wouldn't have a problem with it, and neither will God. I say, stay in your happy place. Xp (once you make it happy again) Sorry I couldn't be more help.