Recently in the past month or two, i've realized that I think im lesbian. I always knew I was bisexual, and so did my boyfriend of 2 years. Once i've realized that I think im lesbian, I told him. We've been apart for about a month now. While I still want to be his friend and I still love him, I know that we can no longer be together. He says its Ok to pursue this girl I've just started seeing to see if thats the road I want to take. I understand that it hurts him, when he sees her and I together and everytime I come home from spending time with her, it turns into a ginormous fight! He thinks it doesnt hurt me like it hurts him. But the truth is, is that Im extremely confused, and it does hurt me what Im going through. I try to be strong and put on a happy face. since this is all going on, he's been laying the charm on super thick, trying to get me to change my mind. and when I bring it to his attention, he denies it and continues to tell me "you need to find out if this is what you really want. I want you to be happy". But he doesnt let me!! So now, its making me confused!!! I've never been in this situation. NEVER in my life did I ever think that I would want a relationship with a woman. so this is new to me. I guess I want to know, how do I handle these new feelings, and how can I TRY and make him see that I need to do this and find out if this is who I am without hurting him?? I wont know unless I try. I dont want to hurt him in any way, but I dont want to not try because then i'll be hurt and lying to myself of who I really am. I need help. Please. how does he learn to deal? if he loves me, he'd understand and back off a bit if he wants me to be happy. I cant stand seeing him hurt.
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