hi, i'm recovering from anorexia so i do have low self esteem, but i thought last year that i was getting over it, i was starting to make new friends and enjoy myself. I was putting weight on and starting to do better in school etc,

like in year 11 i was ill, then when we finished for the summer holidays i started feeling better about myself, my good gcse results boosted my confidence and starting 6 form mase me feel good. This good feeling lasted until xmas. Since then the insecure feelings have started coming back, theres so much pressure in school with coursework. Before xmas i went out every saturday night, i've been out twice since christmas, my excuse is i have too much work to do. But i don't know why i don't want to socialise, and i'm so softly spoken and actually find it difficult to talk to ppl so i struggle to make new friends! I'm worried actually that i'm going to end up very pompous and arrogant and thinking i'm better because of it. i just want to go back to how it was in that period before xmas