Okay so im 17, 5'5'', and 105 lbs.
I currently am trying to eat 1500 calories...I normally eat 1350-1450 calories and i've gradually gotten up to that. I struggled/was hospitalized for an eating disorder 2 years ago but ive since recovered.
I do this workout 5 times a week:
-run 5-6.5 miles, 200 crunches, leg lifts, pilates toning videos
-2 times a week I also add in dumbbells for toning.
I havent had my period since last june and am on a pill to induce it, but it hasnt worked. so im trying to add in healthy fats to my diet to help my low body fat level. but its so hard because i feel like sh** when i do, and i feel fat/like i gained weight, and i just feel soo overwhelmingly guilty.
like today, i had about 15 healthy nuts and about 10 raisins (added to my lunch) to up my fat, and now its been like 8 hours and ive worked out and everything, and i still feel guilty and as though that ruined my day.
im just in such a bad mood and i feel like a failure because of what i ate..what can i do to help this?
i really need advice, this is ridiculous. i already started planning a very low fat day for tomorrow..i cant do the nuts. i cant do this! i dont know what to do.
and getting therapy is not an option.
i dont have a true problem because i eat a lot and am happy.
i just..idk help me!
I currently am trying to eat 1500 calories...I normally eat 1350-1450 calories and i've gradually gotten up to that. I struggled/was hospitalized for an eating disorder 2 years ago but ive since recovered.
I do this workout 5 times a week:
-run 5-6.5 miles, 200 crunches, leg lifts, pilates toning videos
-2 times a week I also add in dumbbells for toning.
I havent had my period since last june and am on a pill to induce it, but it hasnt worked. so im trying to add in healthy fats to my diet to help my low body fat level. but its so hard because i feel like sh** when i do, and i feel fat/like i gained weight, and i just feel soo overwhelmingly guilty.
like today, i had about 15 healthy nuts and about 10 raisins (added to my lunch) to up my fat, and now its been like 8 hours and ive worked out and everything, and i still feel guilty and as though that ruined my day.
im just in such a bad mood and i feel like a failure because of what i ate..what can i do to help this?
i really need advice, this is ridiculous. i already started planning a very low fat day for tomorrow..i cant do the nuts. i cant do this! i dont know what to do.
and getting therapy is not an option.
i dont have a true problem because i eat a lot and am happy.
i just..idk help me!