...appreciate advice! PLZ? I used to be timid, distrusting & innocent. At 18 I opened up to a sweet guy (my best friend) and I trusted him with my life. We went out and I LOVED it but he cheated, lied about it, made fun of me and dumped me in the end very abruptly after he met a girl who wanted to have sex with him (we were gonna be "virgins til marriage" supposedly).

It took me awhile to recover but I found a new guy who I've now been with for 1.5 yrs. He's sweet, shy, loving but bland. I am intellectual and logical, need constant mental stimulation. I think a lot, analyze, calculate and have good control of my emotions and he is just.. bland. I also am less innocent since my first ex and love guys, getting off, watching porn (but I stopped porn a month ago FINALLY). Current guy doesn't get off without me (maybe thrice a yr) and has only ever asked me to get off with him maybe twice. I just feel so bored and stuck in my head, lonely with any guy. I don't believe in "love"; I believe in 2 ppl working towards the same goals.

Am I hopeless? Depressed maybe? I just can't find guys or hold a r'ship anymore
Ohh trust me, I've gotten naked for him many times. Danced for him, done plenty of things; he enjoys them but doesn't like experimenting (for ex. if I were to wear a cute maid outfit, which I wouldn't he would say "oh what's that for? are you going to clean the house?" and I'd say "no it's for sexytime" and he'd say "um..ok.." awkwardly... I just know how he is)