Okay SO, lately i've just been having a really hard time.
School has been a disaster, I'm way in over my head with two AP classes and a ridiculous math class to boot. I'm also president of a club which i didn't think was going to be too much work, but on top of everything else is killing me. Usually, i would describe myself as an extremely laid back, very relaxed person... but lately i've found myself buried under 57 feet of stress.
Then i have my adorable, friends. I've never had a best friend, but my close-knit group us 10 are inseparable. I respect that they are all unique and have their own lives and stress... but all they do is complain, and it's really wearing me down. I am the Dr.Phil of the group, and everyone always comes to me with their problems, and i really love being there for them... but it would be nice if they returned the favor. hahaha
School sucks.
My friends (i love them) but they suck.
DECA is loads of work.
and i'm feeling very insecure about the way I look..
I'm 5'4 and 140 pounds which i know isn't OVERWEIGHT... but it's pretty darn close.
I always feel so chubby. My friends all seem to be thinner than me, and are all incredibly beautiful. I always feel like the ugly duckling when i am with them and am self conscious like noo otherr.
and now we have a school dance coming up, and i'm going with all of my beautiful friends, so i'm going to be the loser who can't dance. like always.
Sorry you had to listen to me complain about these stupid things... i doubt anyone even read this though.
but if there's anyone out there, do you want to know a secret?!
I want to kill myself.
Now you know something that no one IN THE WORLD knows!
and you can feel special. =]
hahaha
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