I told my ex my mind felt messed up, and he asked me what went wrong. Should I rant to him about it or not? I do want him back, but thats not why my mind is messed up. I've heard that ranting to your ex will only push him further. And I don't want to friendzone him either. I'm feeling messed up cuz my closest guy friend randomly decided to get engaged, and then soon after I watched a documentary which was messed up, making me feel even worse. Also the fact that I want him back, but shhhh

What should I do?

No mean comments please, happy new year!