So I'm 17, 18 in about a month. My best friend Joey just turns 18 tomorrow. Anyways, his brother David is 16, turning 17 soon. I like him... His name is David. We started hanging out for the first time in over a year, and now we hang out more than I do with joey. He always play games and stuff with each other. We kinda txt a lot about stuff that is pointless. Anyways, idk... Joeys birthday party yesterday was interesting. Everyone slept downstairs, but me and David slept in his bed upstairs in his room. And we kinda layed in his bed and talked till like, 1am... About pointless things. I wanted to just kiss him or cuddle with him, but I cant... What if he isn't gay or bi. I feel like he is, but then he talks about girls, but so do I since I'm bi... So idk. I just wanna be with him so bad, it's not a crush. He just makes me happy. And If I ask and he says no? My best friend and everyone will find out. We all live on the same street. So I wanna ask but I cant take the risk... Joey knows I'm bi, but he doesn't know I like his brother... Lol, I highly doubt he's ok with that. Idk, I just wanna cry. I can sleep next to him, watch him lay next to me in boxers with his 6pack and toned body, and just lay down and look at me while I am just at a loss of words... I can't even move when I see his smile... I don't know what to do... Ask him or let him go? I just don't know if I can do either =/ (I'm crying like a douche)
I told joey about a year ago, and idk if he told his brother. I dont like talking about it with him. I just wanted him to know. I dont think he has... None of my friends know. But idk if he told his bro. But yeah... Sleepin together in boxers deff. is bad for me... =/
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