When I was little i had an abusive father who i saw beat my mom and was yelled at to go in my room while i heard him hitting her. Later they divorced and he some how got time to see me and started to abuse me in the 6th grade. a couple years later he choked me one day and I went into the bathroom and found painkillers and took 4 of them and started puking because i had taken to much. I passed out and woke up in the bathroom and puked more i made him pull over on the way to school to puke and i puked at school. But no one knew i just told them i was sick. Later i started taking them everytime my dad hurt me or made me feel bad. A year later i was taking them daily and started to run out and would break into my neighbors houses and steal there pills and that was it and they never knew. I was 17 years old my friend found out what i was doing. I got clean for a few months but now im stuck on them again and i dont know what to do i moved to california and i have no one to help me out here.