I am currently a junior in hs, and ever since my freshman year I have been REALLY insecure. My self confidence went down alottt, so ever since then I think I have developed social anxiety. I have a really hard time making new friends and have a hard time holding a conversation with people I don't know. There are alot of people (mostly people that intimidate me-like popular people) that I can never carry a conversation with. I do much better in group settings, especially when I'm with my best friend. My best friend is pretty much my twin, except better. She's prettier, funnier, and way more outgoing. Even before I became so insecure, I was always a really jealous person. I'm always jealous of me best friend (who we'll call Amy) and feel sooo guilty about it because shes basically my sister. She's genuinly a nice person and is such a great friend, and whenever something goes good in her life, I feel really jealous. I can't help it, and I wish I wasn't this way. We are so close it's not even funny. She's the only person I can be COMPLETELY myself around, and if i'm with her in group settings, I can usually be myself/really outgoing. But if I'm meeting someone new/talking with someone one on one I'm really awkward (unless its with amy of course). This year, Amy started to be more outgoing and is making alot of new friends and I'm scared we're going to grow apart since I'm going to be going to a different school (i'm not moving, so we can still hang out). I just don't think I could handle drifting apart from her since we are SO CLOSE and she's the only one who really understands me. Any advice?
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