-my dad left my mom for another woman, and is a total asshole to me
-i take all 3/4 honors level classes as a freshman in highschool , but the workload is so frustrating. my friends are in algebra 2 honors, while i'm stuck in regular and can't switch. they managed to get in, even though i had a higher grades than them. both classes teach the same thing, and i have an A+, while they have Ds. I swear there is no f***** difference between honors and regular. they weasel their way through school copying and doing homework at the last minute, while i study my ass off and do homework the day it's assigned.
-one of my friends is a little prick and i wanna beat the crap outta him
-i playing lacrosse for the fist time, and i get all nervous and embarrased so it screws me up
-people in my church classes mock me, they're all spoiled and rich asian punks, which is starting to make me hate my own race
-i study and do homework until one am, and have to wake up at 6 am

-i reapeatedly bottle up my anger, and if i keep doing it, i'm gonna one day explode
help? (suicide is NOT an option)