Thread: Anyone need to vent? I'm listening!!?

my ears are open to anything you want to rant about.

actually, yeah, ima email u thru yahoo.or not, you don't allow it..
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i'm really confused, trying to find the right religion cuz i really need something to believe in. i can't settle for 'maybe there's a god, maybe not' ..
i looked into wicca and there was the whole contridiction of 'respecting nature and not eating animals cuz they have a life, yet we can eat plants that are life' also agnosticism confused me cuz my agnostic friend says she repents of her sins but she also claims there's no such thing as sin.
my mom is inconsiderate, my sister has a nasty/rude attitude but they claim to be christians, i have yet to see that there's a true-blue christian, that's life has been truly changed and they love God.
i am having trouble believing in any certain god. and jesus and the bible? well, i just wonder.. where's the proof?
that's so unbelievably stressing...
also i feel lonely empty and depressed, i like to hurt myslef. i love pain!! but only caused my my own self on purpose!otherwise i can't stand it!! i feel awful cuz i have the most amazing boyfriend and a couple really good friends but i still feel this way. i feel so disconnected. and..unreal. infact, i watched Numb(movie with matthew perry) and felt quite like i could relate only *maybe* not quite as extreme as him. but i could never see a psychiatrist or anything cuz my parents would just say it's a demon or that i was just looking for attention ..anyway i'm so sorry that was way too long and we're total strangers... but you asked..

The media is killing originality!
Life is an endless system of pointlessness!
Too many people are stupid!
Too many teen girls have low self esteem!
I have writer's block!
Time goes too quickly!
I hate sports!
I'm bored!

but if i tell you...millions of other people will know about it too..and i dont want to appear as that kind of person thanks for offering though

i dont want to mow the lawn.

i like ice cream. oh, and porn.

Well my dear how do we get females to exit an abusive relationship they just don't understand they can't fix it and don't sit there and get beat up All to often I read if you leave I will kill myself, Obvious I would have him kill himself but the coward kills her. . I got enough to rant and rave for ages,do you? This is a crazy world we live in. want to hear my theme song?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iO6kPtzuJpk

Great when you find out life is an illusion and you can make it anything you want. I refuse to go thru life miserable.