I wanna leave my country 'cause I can't stand living here anymore and I wanna live in the US . I have to do this on my own. I can't stop panicking about it.

I also can't stop thinking about who I am gonna end up with or if I'd ever get married. I am scared of ending up alone, working all day long in a foreign country .

If I stayed in my country I wouldn't stop blaming myself for not trying to live in the country of my dreams.