I'm 19, i struggled with depression caused by abuse and rape. I helped a friend slowly get over drug addictions, i finally got off anti depressants less than a year ago. i started looking after myself, i moved out of home one week ago with a work mate. now i find out that her bf who also lives here is not only doing drugs but growing them!
every time i try look after myself, try learn to stand on my own two feet i get thrown into a hole. in less than an hour i have gone from happy, to ready to grab the nearest knife and kill myself because i am tired.
i honestly can't be bothered trying to say everything i've been through. just that it's all started when i was 12 and been getting worse since. so why would a "loving" God do this to someone who has never hurt anyone??
^ this shit, is one of the many reasons i gave up on god and religion.
Alexis De tocqueville i can't afford to and. my choice is here or abusive family. i can't afford anything else.
Sleeping Puppy
Why? why am i being punished for something i haven't done? why should i be punished for other peoples sins when there a horrid people out there getting away scott free?
Doug
WHAT ACTIONS! i've read the bible! the only thing in there that really pertains to me is the fact that no one heard me scream when i was raped, oh and i didn't marry him! don't you tell me it's MY fault when i have done NOTHING to deserve this.
I know i need to go to a doctor, but i can't afford it anymore. i came off the meds with docs okay because i had finally started getting better. it's been a few months and i've been soing so damn well. i thought life had finally let me go, let me relax just a little. i made a huge descision to move out of home and get away from the last bit of abuse holding me back. and i end up with drugs around me. i don't want to be near the stuff, i have watched drugs destory a friend i saw the change when i started getting him off of them. i can't afford to move out, i have no clue how much is here and now i know i put the dots together to find out that the police are already suspicious. i have no clue how much dang
danger i'm in, and i can't get out.
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