I have been unemployed for 2years now, I left my last job when my father took his own life. I have been constantly applying for jobs for about 16months and now after hundreds of rejections I finally got a job yesterday. I had my first day yesterday, and I came home crying and a nervous wreck. I am a very confident person in my personal life....so this was abnormal...I just couldnt go in today, I actually felt like takin my own life instead of going to work.... I am a born again christian and never slept last night as I was praying for the answer, though I still couldnt face going to work..

I am recently married and we really need the money what can I do? What is wrong with me?? PLEASE HELP