But other people aren't? Whenever I stand up infront of everyone, answer/ask questions, participate, and even look around you can tell I'm nervous and look very shy. My few attempts at making jokes got me no laughs because I sound boring. I can also question and participate, but I can't "mingle", be loud, random, or be the center of attention. Which is really strange because I really want to be these things! could it be I have social anxiety disorder?

My voice is no better either. Everytime I talk my voice shakes and changes that people HAVE to look.