I found out i am lopsided which isn't a big deal for some but for me It is.Alittle stupid I know its not the end of the world.

i was on mushrooms when i found out, i may have seemed vain back then but now I have low self-esteem. Throughout the years I've discovered depression and created(imagined) a whole nother world inside my head. i feel like people close to me have lied to my face now I have trouble trusting anyone. I've changed big time. I've created a split personality, this may sound stupid but its true. My friends tell me to harden up, my family says to get over it. i just need help, I've thought about councilling but haven't tried it. For some reason when someone try's to help me, I laugh(Denial). When I want help I don't get help, like im stopping myself from getting help.During interveiws I'm having a completely different and non-related conversation with them(in my head) and It's interupting me from reality. i'm really getting fed up with this bull, my mind isn't free.