i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a couple of years ago, have seen various therapists and am currently on effexor. my anxiety symptoms have lessened slightly, my heart doesn't race anymore, and the stomach pains have lifted. i don't cry as easily anymore, either. the huge plunges into blackness have stopped, but i can't say i'm happy. the opposite is true, actually. it's like i went from being on a rollercoast to being on an underground subway, submerged in sadness at all times. and then out of nowhere, i'll suddenly get so happy i feel like BURSTING. my stomach goes crazy, my head spins and i can barely contain myself. it feels like i've had ten coffees. i read about manic depression, and it says that in the "high" points, a person will do things they don't normally do and will feel invincible, but i don't have those symptoms. these "highs" usually are triggered by something semi-exciting, but i definitely over react. what's wrong with me?