A bit of background info: I'm 20 years old & struggling to overcome a severe anxiety & panic disorder. Because I've been counting on "loved ones" for support, they say I depend way too much on other people. This is frustrating because "loved ones" are supposed to be there for you in times of need. This poem is really just about my feelings about my entire situation.
They say what doesn't kill you
Will only make you stronger
Well, I'm strong enough now
I can't take it very much longer
I'm losing myself
Losing my ground
Trying to cut these restraints
That keep me bound
I'm screaming inside
Does anyone hear me crying?
I'm losing my breath
I'm too young to fear that I'm dieing
My tear soaked hand is left reaching
Reaching for a hand to hold
Didn't realize I was too dependant
At least that's what I'm told
And so here I am alone
Standing in the middle of this storm
It doesn't seemed to have calmed
Guess I'll just have to conform
It could be worse
Yet I'm still alive
Still hanging on

I know I'll survive
Can't say I'm grateful for this
And I may have to do it all on my own
But I'm discovering things
That would have, otherwise, remained unknown
So I'll try to be positive
I'll still cry if I need to
But just wait and see
I can do it, I'll prove it to you