Ok I always wondered if I was the only one who does this but I have never been brave enough to ask people in person. I want to die doing something heroic like jumping in front of a bullet of sacraficing myself to save someone else. I would rather die young as a hero than grow old and die of natural causes. I am not suicidal and I do not want to kill myself or anything like that. I love my life and I don't have any mental problems that I am aware of. For some reason I like to fantasize about wierd an unlikely situations where I would have to die to save someone else. Now that I right it down I realize I probably sound crazy. Is this wierd? Does anyone else do this? Should I see a doctor of psychiatrist or something?