In 2002, my hands starting to hurt like pins and needles. When I woke up I felt like I had gotten no sleep and my hands were stiff and painful. Over the last 6yrs my life has taken a beating. It's slowly has been improving as I push further and further with doctors.However, doctors take time and money, which I don't have that much of. It took 2yrs to find out splits helped bring my sleep dramatically, 2yrs more to find drug called neurontin. I have put my dreams, relationships, life on hold because everyday I can't predict whether it will be a good day or an unbearable day. This has made everything very difficult, as my focus has on all things medical. It's paid off as its improved every year. Question is, should I accept this will not get fully better or keep fighting? Accepting it may mean ending all my dreams and try to live a simple life. Pushing forward means more difficult job/time/stress to get health ins. and earn $$ with hope that I can find cure but little life. Thank you