Lol this is for anyone but if mike sees this please answer
I have social anxiety im just not diagnosed with it but it seems pretty likely ... i get panic attacks where once in a while i might have this thought that WONT go away and then i panic and flip out and its HORRIBLE. Sometimes even if im totally relaxed (this is usually around people) i get dizzy and shortness of breath
When i walk through the hallways i always think about every little thing about what im doing and i think EVERYONE is judging me when there not! And i used to not care about that stuff and like i really dont care if people think im weird, but for some reason i get so panicky anyway! Its horrible and im a singer and sing in chior, when im up on stage i cant get the thought out of my head that the whole audience is looking at ME and then i start to shake like the back of my necka nd then it gets SO stiff. I dont know what to do i wanna be a journalist but how can i? You are so lucky your not me
Oh one more thing- i haven't told anybody because im scared to tell my mom, like what am i supposed to say? "Hi mom, i have social anxiety." And i dont wanna take meds but IDK i really think i need to talk to someone but idk how and ill feel weird.
And it all is kinda like paranoria too like thts what it is but its weird cuz i dont even care if people think im weird but while im around people it feels like the end of the world or something.
Soo...yah.... i am dreading school tommarow like i seriously dont wanna go I HATE IT SO MUCH
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