my ex boyfriend used to beat the crap out of me 5 years ago. with almost anything he could get his hands on. doors, plates, furniture. he almost killed me. he served some time in jail, and i met another man that i moved in with - a great guy. we recently split up, and now i'm by myself. i didn't realize how safe he made me feel, and now i'm horrified to be alone. i saw my ex driving today, it's making me have really bad flashbacks and i'm afraid to sleep or go out of my house so i won't see him.

i don't want to live like that. i don't ahve any extra money or insurance, so i cant go to therapy. is there anything you can suggest i try to help myself?