...life.....? Hello,, I am living in non-English speaking country. I am hopeless.

I have learned English over 15 years, but my English is still very bad. In fact, I am intellectually delayed a bit (a doctor said so, when I was little), and English was the only thing that I am better than average.

But today, I realized that learning English was a mistake for me, and I can't go back my life. I shouldn't have gone to university, I shouldn't have learnt English, today I noticed everything that I wanted to do was something I'm poor at.

I'm already in my late 30's, so I can't change my life.. I don't know if there is any options for me other than,,,

I have spent a lot of money and time to learn English, and I'm bad at it, and everyone else can speak it even though they don't put much effort.. I'm born talentless.....

Learning English was mistake for me,,,, what should I do.... please someone help me....