so may parents used to beat me all black n blue for lil mistakes i used 2 make

so much so that i used to b scared to talk to someone also.although now theyre fine but they do abuse me n i feel they never will understand me.but the biggest mistake i made was confiding this to my bf.obviously i wanted some1 totally my own but i was always at 3rd position wid him.first his religion den his family n den me.i never felt v could make it much far cause he was very diff.i sacrificed everythin for him.i even stopped askin him to stuy hard to have a good future.but there was always a reason 2 fight n de blame was always me.one i could take it nomo wen he told me that theres noone in dis world i luv.ihated dis n den he quoted my parents.anyways i called him again n he was straight to tell me he hates me cause i said somethin abt his sister.ok so great after 2 yrs he left me tellin me noone could make me happy. i feel worse now.i hate realtionships wat should i do wid my life???? plz help