It's always been haunting me, this emotional switch to my feelings. I feel like I can never truly be sad because I always end up smiling, hyper and happy again. It's like someone resets my emotions to "normal". And everyone who knows me would call me "normal" because that's the facade I put out. I usually am over-sensitive, if people were to talk about weight in general I could carry on a conversation, sure, no problem. But if people were to start criticizing me, I would most likely start bawling. I also have other triggers, my mother, my grades, perfection, pressure. I hate it when people ask: "Are you okay?" I understand that it's customary to say, "Yeah, I'm fine." But sometimes I just wonder what's the point of being polite if I feel like shit? So help me? What the hell is wrong with me?
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