ive never wanted to live, i just dont care about anything all the while i care way to much.
i mean i use to hurt myself which statred at 5 (i dont now) i just wanted to feel something. now i feel so lifeless i have nothing to live for. i dont care about anything (whether i live or die or anything else) i cant talk to any one about this stuff. i feel so fake when i smile or feel even a litte happy because im not use to it.im so lost. i dont realy have anyone.

i need reasons to keep going... please someone just one good reason to keep going and not curl up in a ball and shut out everything.