I don't know how to put this, the last few months i've started 'waking up' with no recollection of what's happened a few hours earlier. like i'll remember sitting at my desk then the next thing ill be sitting under my table. last night I came round to see loads of smashed glass everywhere and cuts on my wrist (not deep) but there was still quite a bit blood. I've been using sleeping pills, as i have trouble getting a good nights sleep and i once woke up from a nights sleep sittting at the bottom of my bed with them poured out in front of me.

I don't really know what im asking, advice, help an explanation. It's just starting to scare me and there's no one i can tell about it. What if i do something bad happens next time, or what if i cut deeper? My health is already bad and I feel my mind is a bit frayed but I don't know where to start.

Sorry about the uncomfortable question, please feel free to mock and laugh, maybe that's all it's really worth.