It's just a low point for me, usually I'm okay. Was just talking to a mate over the net and he mentioned something, and it just brought back a flood of emotions.

I should be happy, but so depressed right now. Can't even talk about it. I got assaulted sexually twice, three years apart, you would think the second time I would have known not to let him in. And it was the mate of the guy who did it the first time, but he swore he wasn't like that.

So now I'm just sitting here, feeling low, and dirty, and hypervigilant.


Actually, is there anything I can do to help me cope and help me with the hypervigilance? I'm constantly on alert and hostile to anything that looks like it could threaten me.