i hate it im always drinking my skin is all dry and pimples are breaking out coz of it not to mention wasting all my work money on it.

and now im back to cutting myself like i used to 2 years ago. but the thing is there is nothing to be depressed over, i just hate myself.
im fat and now im breaking out in pimples i look gross.
i just get in trouble all the time for skipping school then that causes fights with parents at home.
a teacher at my school knows i drink (i dont know how) i dont tell anyone anything, i drink by myself, and prefered me to a councillor
so anyway i went to the councellor, and made out everything is fine, and i dont drink, but when i was with her i was drunk... i dont have the guts to tell anyone my problems

what should i do

sorry about the longness of it