After 32 yrs, i admitted and finally am able to see im sickly addicted to cars and its getting worse. Now im completly physically and mentally sick and need honest help.
Please take the time to read this and help me. Im sorry but its long.
Im 32 and live with my parents. No brothers or sisters. I have no kids or GF or wife. I have a BA degree in teaching but dont work at all. I just sell nick nacks online. Yes i guess i was spoiled growing up but my parents gave me everything i wanted or most of it, cuz they love me and i love them. I was always a quiet good kid and a loner. Never caused any trouble.
They bought me my first car 91 chevy caprice police package. Black and mint. It was 5K$. Lovely automobile. I was 18 and needed a car to go to college with and it was a fun thing that got me throug the tough times in study hall . lol As time went on i became addicted to cars and negelected my major course work. I spent 5-10 hours a day and everyday in the garage after school till midnight. I did everything , engine, body work, electric. Im the only child again so i had all this time. I never lived like a kid and never knew what it was like to live like a kid and enjoy childhood. It was all in the garage. My dad is semi-handy, he just knows about screwdrivers and little stuff. He kinda got me into it but i took it to the next level and went crazy. It distracted me all through college. Luckly i did graduate with fair grades. It was a freaking miracle lol. I been playing piano since i was 5 and love music. I neglected it most of my life because i got into cars when i was 18. I am addicted i say. Again i dont really work now and stay home working on my car and think about it 23 hours of the day. I read car books, go out and talk with mechanic, do all my repairs. I wish i can just enjoy life and the other bounties of life. HOW can i start to move away from the car addiction. ITs really bad. I spent already 20-30 thousnad over the past 10 yrs on car crap. I feel that being in my car is a safety blanket and dont want to ever get on buses or trains. I live in NYC. I cant take transit. I freak out when i leave my car alone , that i almost get sick , nauseaus and headaches. I wish i can just go back to my music and enjoy it.
Please help me,, i know im weird, i just did all i can and i need other peoples input.
thanks
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