I was assessed for bipolar which i don't have, instead they said i had a mood disorder which was mild. But my moods swings are a nightmare, i get low where the only options in my head is suicide, i get angry and am very rude, i don't care about me and others, i hit out and get very frustrated. This can last for a few days and when i come out of it i feel normal but then i get too happy, in my stomach i have constant butterflies and i am ready to run, i have so much energy, i am really hyper and can't stop laughing over things that other people don't find funny, in this mood i don't really care what other people think of me either but when i am in a 'normal' mood i am very shy and have very low self esteem i also have social anxiety. So when i am in a low/high mood this makes me feel worse when i am 'normal' as i remember how rude i am too people and i feel bad at how blunt i have been etc.
Does anyone know what could be going on? I just feel like i am not getting better as i don't know how to help myself? Does this just sound like normal way of dealing with mental health? I am so confused, today i am feeling in a 'normal' mood but for the past 4 days i have been very hyper.
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