I have been sober for a year now, a member of A.A I dont have a sponser yet. Trying to get one. I want to know why I feel so crazy. I have no patients , get angry and cant control myself, cry at the drop of a pin. My first drink was at age 5 , my first blackout was at age 21.Im now 41. Im not understanding why I am all of the sudden after a year sober so out of control and it's getting to the point that I feel so out of control emotionally , that I would rather be a drunk than feel like this. Why is this happening ?