I can't make myself eat...??
yea im anorexic again
of course i want to be well but i can't
sometimes im trying to eat but i spit it out after chewing or just throw up
and if i eat a full meal without throwing up,
i won't have the next meal
im completely trapped and im so angry with myself
i can't manage to recover
and i don't know why i want to lose weight

i have always been skinny comparing with other girls ( im light and people have always been calling me that )
i guess i have low self-esteem which make me very sad...??
im seeing a therapist