I am an 18 year old girl. I have been depressed for a few years now. It has gotten extremely bad over the past year. I am currently switching from prozac to another anti depressant. I feel very suicidal. I started writing my suicide note earlier today. My plan was to make it past the holidays so my mother wouldn't have to deal with my funeral at this time but I don't think I can make it months let alone days. Explaining why I feel this way would take me forever, and I am only here looking for some advice, anything, I just need some help.

I don't know who to ask for help or how to ask for help in real life. I don't know how to just come out and tell someone I want to die..I am even planning how. I really need some advice, some help, I am at the end, and I am asking and needing any help please. Help me?